Tuesday, August 31, 2010


Oppression, Racism, Dictatorship, Corruption, Denial of rights, Greed, Controlled Media

Good god. I really am having a writers bloc. Don't have really much to say now.

Merdeka. Are we there yet?

p/s: tired of hearing the same story of how UMNO got us merdeka. I'll post somewhere this month about the alternative history of merdeka. Then you'll understand when somebody says "History are half-truths. It just tells the story of the triumphed and left the relinquished untold"

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Sing-a-along everybody!

Alang2 aku dah tade idea nk post apape dlm blog ni,

Might as well aku post lagu menarik utk sesape yg lalu kat blog nih.

Hey, everyone of you guys must have a moment or two when you hear a song, it straight away blows you away, and you'll feel somewhat connected to it.

Sometimes the song doesn't have any connection but still, it gives you the grooves and make you sing-a-long in an instant. Your head feels like banging, hands tapping and body swinging.

It's been awhile I havent have a good feel listening to any song. come and sing-a-long everybody! =D


p/s: Oh shit she's a gold digger. Well, just thought you should know nigga!

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Letter for my brother, Azizi

Hey bro,

Congratulations on your admittance to UDM. Now you are called a MAHASISWA, embarking to a new journey into a whole new world. This world may be alien to you, you may suffer a culture shock; a condition that is normal for any teenager.

But dont be afraid. This feeling is just a feeling. It will go away in a few weeks time, where you'll get adjusted. you'll get accustomed with the culture, hostel life. Yes, you will get homesick once a while. but that will only shows that you still have a loving place in your hearth that is called home.

You will find new friends. some are nice, some may be a little wicked to you. learn to get along with everyone. learn and observe those people around you. learn their behavior. you can trust them but be aware and alert. so that people will not stomp you down and take advantage of you. life is like a discovery channel. its a survival of the fittest!

Remember the day that we sent you to UDM. how abah restlessly try to make your 1st day at UDM a perfect one. Equip you with everything you need without missing anything. making sure that everything is complete once you arrive there. without having you buy your necessaries on your own. Remember how mama cried when she give you a hug for the last time. Its a sign that she is truly worried about you, because she has never leave a sight on you since your birth. this is the 1st time you leave home. remember that! and always remember this so that it will give you strength to be the best in UDM. Harapan; hope of our parents lies on you. for you to become successful one day with UDM as the ticket for you.

Learn learn and learn. Never get tired of learning. Academic is the utmost important, as with knowledge you will be held high regard in society, everywhere. learning is not by books only. learn about everything! learn how to command, learn how to survive, learn how to love and cherish, learn to be the best of friends, best of student, best of a human being. learn how to communicate. learn how to conduct events. participate any activities any societies. flourish yourself with these kinda things so that you will be equipped mentally and physically. through these things, you will find the best of friends that you can trust, you will find the best of experience that you can gain that you will never forget.

Dont waste your time with something foolish. do something random, something eccentric once in a while. we are teenagers. we are supposed to be rebellions. we learn from mistakes. what i mean something foolish is not doing anything! always try! try to do anything. theres no such thing as right or wrong when u are a student. but  if you found out that what you are doing is wrong, take it as example and never do it again. to never fail is stupid! never be afraid of failing. and dont hold yourself to do anything. just do it! with 100 of fails, you'll come across a success that is so sweet you'll cherish the experience.

Just remember, life in uni is about having fun. dont be too rigid, and too strict and stiff. be flexible instead. and always be positive. I know that you have your own ideals and principle. I believe that you can do it. Do your best because this is the only chance that you can prove to mama and abah, and make them proud. But remember. your journey will not stop short here. you have a long way to go. Research on you path in the future. so that you will know to plan for your future.

I guess that is all I can say. Good luck brother. and godspeed. You are the hope of our parents. We 3 brothers have our own ideals and characteristics. you have one special ability in you that differs form me and abg jim. therefore you must also succeed so that you can use your ability for the betterment of the society, ummah in general.

Your brother

p/s: wrote this with teary eyes.

I'm hooked

I'm hooked.....

with this song! hoho

Its a breakup song, for peeps who just going through a break up.

Nice....because why? I like the part when he sings

"It's alright (It's alright) cause you can try but you'll never keep me down
It's alright (It's alright) I may be lost but you'll never keep me down
You can try (you can try) you can try but you'll never keep me down
You cant try (you can try) I know i'm lost but I'm waiting to be found"

Thats the spirit! Thats the way to be positive!

When people treat you like shit, you dont' get fucked up and be gloomy. You get even instead!

Life as a teenager is so short to be sad. Enjoy life! Enjoy freedom while you can!

Its a worthwhile experience to be enjoyed with FRIENDS

Yeah you can wait for a knight in a shining armor to catch you before you fall, or a beautiful princess to drop her silken tissue for you to pick up for her..

But hell no, I'll not waste my time to wait for anyone!

Because I believe in fate. I believe in destiny. and when the right time comes, Allah will surely meet me with someone that completes me.

For i am now incomplete. I am just a "quarter". but before i can be "half" and connect with my other "half", I'll cherish this life, fulfill my duties as a SON and a STUDENT, grab all the opportunities that i can get, absorb the experience that I can learn and finally become "half" to be united with my soulmate.

my life is already complete with friends and family to hold me up!

Its a fuckin disgrace for your friends and family if you are sad because of someone thats only be with you for a shortwhile in your life, even its a 3-4 years of relationship. think about it. sape lagi lame kenal dan sayang kamu, dalam dan luar kamu? who's always with you for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death do us part?

seriously. guys. get a life!

p/s: When I get sad, I stop being sad and be AWESOME instead.
p/s/s: Quote: Barney Stinson

Saturday, July 3, 2010


Aku ada harga diri dan maruah. maka secara logik nye aku tidak akan meletak kan diri aku dibawah org lain. I can stand up with my own bloody feet, no one can push me down.

tapi aku pelik. ble pasal cinta, remaja selalu tumpas. aku bersyukur sebab aku tak terjebak dgn mende haram nih.

*for now*

Bagi aku, remaja zaman sekarang kebanyakan nye bercinta dgn cara yg salah. Maruah; pride digadai. dilepas kan segala nye demi cinta. Aku tak berckp pasal sex ya. lebih pada jati diri.

Semuanya mengharap pada perkara yang tidak jelas masa hadapan nya.

p/s: Aku malas nk mengulas. kerana sgt emosi bila berckp tentang topik tersebut

Thursday, July 1, 2010


Tomorrow is my LAST day of internship

dan aku menjadi semakin MALAS

dah.tu je yg aku nk bgtau.

kehidupan di ofis adalah sangat rutin

kesimpulannya : aku tanak keje ofis!

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Morning gloom

Sequel to midnight blues

No matter how many times you stumble,
You will always get back up!

Nobody is worth more than yourself.
Don't put yourself lower then him.
Because deep down inside you are better than him.You know that.

Will you submit, will you surrender, will you bow down, will you admit defeat?

Or will you stand up for your self, rise and be strong, be independent and lead your life by your own rules and make decisions base on your own choice.

Nobody can take care of you but yourself.
But remember, there are those who care about you,
that will cordially assist you on your way up.
you dont have to ask, you dont have to beg.
you just have to open up and let it be.

These people are the ones who will walk by your side along the steps of your life.
Don't be a fool, and don't be arrogant.
You need them and they need you too.
So open up, and let them into your life as you enter their lives too.
Families, friends, strangers. no matter who they are.
you must always find kindness inside them and cherish them
and that is the way of life.

always be kind to others even to our enemies.
because the more hatred you have, the lower you put yourself.
As you take positive on everything that happens to you,
and let happiness colour your life.
I promise you, you will feel the ultimate freedom!

p/s: Be strong adik!

Saturday, June 5, 2010


I will be away next week.

Yup. One whole week deprive of internet. no FB, Twitter, emails.


For those who dont know me, I'll be commissioned to the rank of 2nd lieutenant on 12th June 2010. After 3 years of training in Reserve Officer Training Unit, finally I'll graduate as an officer.

But theres a catch. I've done something really bad last week and created some problem with a young officer.

So, whatever the outcome maybe, I will stand up with pride and honor. Because thats what being an OP is all about. Thats what RMC have taught me. Be a gentleman and hold your integrity. I will not go down without a fight.

Till another post, toodles

p/s: penat jd photographer for my cuzen's wedding today. congrats MOHD AZFAR ARIFF and NUR ATIQAH! welcome to the family and may you guys have a happy long lasting relationship!=)

Thursday, May 27, 2010


Apabila PROBLEM datang melanda, diri menjadi RUNSING.

Kepala rase macam nak PECAH!

Tapi nak buat macam mane. Semua salah sendiri.

"Terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kata dibawa mati"

 Every obstacles we encounter, always make yourself calm and think of the important aspect to swift your way out of the problem.

-This is maybe the biggest thing that I have done and im ready to take the responsibility of my actions.
-sbb aku semua kena, rase bersalah tak guna.
-papehal pn aku akan ready dgn point2 utk defend maruah squad aku.

p/s: runsing kerana masalah ini cmpur dgn masalah adik =(

Friday, May 14, 2010

malas malas malas

Merujuk pada tajuk diatas, ye sememangnye saye sangat malas. 
 Tak tahu kenape. 
Mase kat ofis ni banyaaaaaaak sgt. 
Tapi sangat malas. Malas ape nak tahu tak? 
Malas nak update blog. 

Jadi pada hari ini aku hanya nak merapek je. kalau malas nk bace aku mrapu sila2 lah click butan 'x' diatas 

Adooooi. Ape nk jadi nih? Tapi ape yang aku buat? 
Bace blog orang lain. bace alternative  media. bace mende2 bodo org link. 
Dalam kepale aku nih penuh dgn propaganda2 ideologi2 falsafah2. 
tak lupa juga benda2 lawak. trimas la pada yang bagi link2 lawak. 
tade la stress sangat aku asik bace menda2 heavy je. -.-". 

Tapi papehal pn aku nk promote kat korang satu blog yang aku da lame link kat dlm blog aku, tp aku jarang follow. sbb memang heavy reading. Blog ni ditulis oleh M. Bakri Musa. Nak tau camne aku bley kenal die nih? Sebab aku ade tgk youtube pasal "Malaysia Towards a Developed Country." camne aku bley tgk video nih aku pun tak ingat. aku rase sebab aku nk usha video Anwar punye speech kat univeristi kat US then ter usha kat link2 berkaitan kat sebelah kot. macam menarik je so aku usha ar.

Aku mmg respek gle ngan idea2 die. views die semua buat aku terpikir sejenak tentang ape yang berlaku zaman sekarang nih. macam mana nak perbaiki semua yang tengah rosak nih. Kalau korang nak tau, aku memang suke dengar org cakap, bg talk pasal education, economics, history in general. Falsafah2 ke teori2 ke semua aku suke dengar. dan tak lupe juge mende2 agama. Sebab dari itu baru lah pemikiran kita berkembang. tade la asik dengar satu pihak je. Bagi aku org melayu nih suke dengar satu pihak je. Dah tu terus percaye bulat2. sebab tu senang kene tipu dan brainwashed. sebab malas nak amik tau. Ignorant! bak kate org putih.

Ade orang kate, "buat ape ko nk tau mende2 nih, nape ko nk libat kan diri dgn mende2 politik nih semua?" hey dumbass. bukan politik je yang aku minat ok? seperti yang diperkatakan diatas. I like to read everything under the sun. Tapi bagi aku, politik ni mmg semua org kene amik tahu. Sebab kalau kita tak amik tau, senang2 la org nk tipu kite. senang2 la kerajaan nak control kita. senang cite,tade la kite tros diperbodoh kan oleh org yang makan gaji dari duit kita gak. kalau satu hari nanti malaysia porak peranda, siapa yg patut dipersalahkan? rakyat sendiri la sebab kebodohan sendiri. Sorry to say, if you guys want to stay ignorant then its up to you guys.

Aku tanak kehidupan normal macam sesetengah orang. Aku tanak normal cycle life seperti org kebiasaan yang tade vision [blaja, cari awek, keje, kawin, anak, tua, cucu, mati]. I got BIG plans, BIG vision for myself. I will not stand by to be ordinary because I am extra ordinary! therefore sebagai future leader, aku mesti lah tahu issue2 semasa seperti begini. dan sebab itu lah istilah awek tiada dlm kamus hidup aku. its such a waste of time to have something to commit, to be so into commitment, but the fact really is that there's nothin to commit pun actually. But that, is another story

Selain dari blog M. Bakri Musa tersebut, let me suggest you guys a great website for those who like to watch intellectual talks, TED.COM. You'll be suprised of how people can think these bombastic ideas in technologies. they also let people to discuss on broad topics like religion, phylosophy, current issues and such. Big ideas you'll never ever imagine.

Aku rase cukup lah setakat ini aku merapek. ya bila aku menulis, memang banyak aku omong kan (aku tak tau nape org ske gune perkatan2 indon. saje nk nampak exotic kot) Jadi sampai disini sajalah ulasan saya pada hari ini. ada masa lagi, saya akan ulas isu2 yang lagi mendalam dan detail supaya dapat kita renung2 kan bersama.

p/s: aku still hutang makhluk aneh "7 things you should know about me". ape? ingat aku lupa?

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Encouraging words

Something that was said to me yesterday made me proud and confident of myself;

"I like your style Aizat.I'm quite impressed by you. The way you promote your ideas and discuss it, how aware of you towards issues and such. because not many young people are like you. I think you should be a politician and join putera UMNO. We need progressive young minds like you la to be the administrator of this country. why not kan? we never know. But I guess for me you should keep your grades up. Because with what ever you have right now I think I have no problem on recruiting you. Just make a lot of networks, keep your contacts with the managers and engineers and you'll do great."

p/s: not really the exact words she said. but at least it sounded more or less like that =p
p/s/s: semangat UP! hehe. what came out as a controversy leads to something much better.huha. =)
p/s/s/s: I felt quite irked when she say putera UMNO. nevertheless i take it as a compliment.hehe

Sunday, May 2, 2010

So much to write, so little time...

Huhu..its been awhile I haven't updated anything..I'm sorry guys I've just been busy.

Got loads of ideas drafted to write but i just got no time. I have just started my internship last week. Daily routine  are waking up at 5.30, back at home around 8 and sleep at 12. I never thought working daily in office is just so tiring, even working at office in aircond and not actually doing anything. Its just that daily routine makes you tire and when you arrive home you just wanna lie on your bed and go to sleep. The cycle is just the same everyday. wake up, go to work, back home and sleep.

Streamyx are just so fukken irritating. At one time the connection is ok, Then the next u cant even open google. rupenye ade prob cable ke po tah, seminggu mmg takley surf. nsb bek skang bley on9. dats why bru skang nk update blog hehe.

So maybe after this if got time, I'll update about my internship process n all. I also still didn't do the "7 things you should know about me" that makhluk aneh tagged me. so much to write, so little time.huhu

till then, toodles! =D

Monday, April 26, 2010


Its the first day of internship and I'm very nervous


What to do??

Should I just say to the receptionist, "kak I'm here for my 1st day of internship. Sila beri tunjuk ajar"

Huah2. Just one thing explains my feeling right now.


Well, come to think of of it, every single 91 of my batch is currently going through the same thing and probably more nervous than I am, so why don't I just go with the flow, and take the ride. chill la dude!

good luck to me! do your best! =)

p/s: The 1st thing I did when I woke up, I check my FB n den post this blog. what a geek -.-"

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Of politics and Hulu Selangor

*This post is very long and boring. Stop reading if you are not interested in politics*

Hmmm....Hulu Selangor. What's with Hulu Selangor eh? Is there something special happening there?

I'm glad you asked. In fact something really important is happening there for the past week and the events thats happening for the past week will all comes down to this very day. It is the day, where we uphold the spirit of democracy. It is the day where in the spirit of liberty, we proclaim our rights to choose our leader that shape our country.

For those who still don't know what is happening in Hulu Selangor right now, we are having a by-election to elect the new MP for the constituent after the death of its former MP, Datuk Dr Zainal Abidin Ahmad of PKR Well, I did overdo the words and exaggerate a bit. It's just a by-election, nothing will change in the parliament accept one more seat will go to either BN or Pakatan Rakyat's camp (or independent). But the point is any by-election is just as important as the General Election. Why? Because, related to what I said above, democracy thrives from the actions of the nation's rakyat. Democracy, without full involvement and spirit of the rakyat, is like a tree without fruit. It doesnt mean anything if a nation screams of its freedom and democracy, but its people are not free and don't exercise their rights.

So its a head to head battle of BN and Pakatan with Kamalanathan VS Zaid Ibrahim. I wanna make it clear that I am not to write about the manifesto or to support any of the candidates, but I just wanna give a layman's opinion of the situation that we are in right now in conjunction to the Hulu Selangor by-election. Just another opinion of mine about modern day Malaysian politics.

1) First of all, I am sick and tired of Malaysian politics. Why? Because its rubbish and full of shit. It stinks and smell like rotten fish. It got so rotten that we need to overhaul the whole system to get it cleaned. The blame is not all to the system, but the blame is all on us. I think that, even after 53 years of merdeka, we are not politically matured enough. The way we define politics is just so wrong. Let me give you an example. If you ask any BN supporter why we have to vote for BN what do you think they will answer? I bet you they will answer like this,
"Come on la. BN da lame memerintah, tgk ape yg BN dah buat kat negara kita. diorang dah maju kan negara kita. ade KLCC, Putrajaya. BN lah yg memperjuangkan nasib rakyat kita terutamanya Melayu. diorang yg berjuang utk kemerdekaan. Tanpa BN, kite akan hancur. ko takkan tak bersyukur dgn ape yg diorang buat. sbg rakyat, kte kene sokong diorang. berterima kasih la tu pun susah sgt"
Did you not see whats wrong? I tell you, thats the most stereotyped answer I would come across. I mean do these people have the slightest idea what they are talking about? They single handedly destroyed the very foundation of democracy that is freedom of choice. What is democracy? It is the freedom to choose any representative I want. and why the hell I have to vote for someone, even if I don't like them and found out very nasty things about them just because their past achievements and success?
"diorang dah tolong ko la bodoh. tak nampak ke. ko skang nih tgh makan duit kerajaan, duduk atas tanah kerajaan, study dkt universiti dgn pertolongan kerajaan blablabla". 
Yeah, and I suppose to use that excuse to support that party. That is the lamest excuse I ever heard. What is the function of a government? It is to govern this country from a MANDATE that is given by the rakyat. We the rakyat who elect those people that walks at the corridors of power in the first place. we the rakyat who pays them their wage that feeds their family. They are the ones who are working for us! It is their responsibility to take care the welfare of the nation and its people, and it is my god given right to take what ever this nation offers! and then you tell me that i should be thankful? yes I'm thankful for what I've got and received. But, to use that excuse is just a shame to democracy. And theres a huge different between a government and a political party, you should know it yourself.

 If you ever watch the Americans/Britons during their General election over the CNN/BBC, they will never talk something like that. What they will say? they will talk about the economy, healthcare system, foreign relations, immigration policies etc. Their concern is of national interest. They vote not because of the party they pledge, but to the policies that the party represents.(again, I'm saying this in a layman's term from my point of view. from watching CNN/BBC)

2) What a shame to our politics when every now and then, the politicians will raise petty issues to bring shame to the opposite camp. I mean, even in the parliament, where they are suppose to discuss and debate on national agenda also is being used as a boxing ring match between two camps (BN vs Pakatan). Name calling, raising personal issues like; whether to wear a songkok or not; this minister call him a baboon, that minister apply the same concept of a leaking ceiling with women on pms, Babi Negara, etc. all this you can watch it on youtube. just search any parliament debate video and you'll know whats wrong. They are like school children fighting over each other, squabbling. Well in this case of Hulu selangor by-election, its is not surprising that the BN will start the game with calling Zaid Ibrahim an alcoholic cum gambler. Its easy to play with the maly mind and sentiment using these tactics.

I call this bullshit. Whats the point of this? Are'nt this is all personal matter to begin with? Ok2. You dont feel comfortable of Zaid dinking. I also feel disturbed by it as well. but do you not feel disturbed that a whole lot of our own ministers in the name of BN also drinks and gamble and swindle the rakyat's money? a whole lot of them are womanizers too. dont you feel disturbed by that? come on I dont need proof for this. It's widely known already and please dont think that their are the "holier than thou"  type just ask any person who have worked closely with the gomen than they will all say the same thing. so what does make these people in BN camp? arent they a bit hypocritical?

Dah la nk tuduh org, tp pakai gambar superimpose. bloodyhell

I wont be surprise by it actually. because it is known that up till the 80's, social drinking is such a commmon thing among the malays in the elite class. why? because we follow the footsteps of the british thats why. the British pass down this tradition to us and the elites been following this tradition. Not to mention any country's official ceremony, regimental army ceremonies all are with the presence of alcohol.

I mean political tactics have been regarded to be low as this to bring down their opponents. they dont care to bring up national issues, but all they do is to bring shame to their opponents and that is bollocks.

3) What is the benchmark of a candidate to win an election? The answer is how much money you can flush to give away to the rakyat. That simple. just read this article. It is not surprising that Najib will come down to Hulu selangor and tell people something like " Ok the deal is this, I give you RM2000 now and then after we win the election I'll give you RM10000 later. so vote for us!" does that look like bribery to you? It is something that you would not find hard to see in every election. that is the time when the roads at your neighborhood is refurnished, public places will upgrade, etc. but think sir, what have they been doing all this time? why only during the election they do all these things? yes. fishing for votes. that is all they care about. and then after the election, you can kiss that money good bye. People in the by-election constituents are really  lucky to get freebies aren't they?

To wrap this all up, I would say good luck for the BN and Pakatan, may whoever wins can bring something good in the parliament! We dont need puppets to just sit in the seat doing nothing but follow the parties policies. But we want someone who will bring change to the country. Kamalanathan seems like a nice chap i suppose. in the other hand, we have the progressive malay, Zaid Ibrahim. Who would you choose?

Saturday, April 24, 2010


I will not surrender myself to ignorance, as ignorance is the highest level of stupidity. 
I will not live my life accepting everything that's being told without ever going to stop, think and listen
No politician or imam can tell me what to do or to believe without my own conscience
Because the truth doesn't lie on the words of a specific man. 
Knowledge is there for us to seek so don't let your ignorance make you a fool!

Friday, April 16, 2010

Study = Tensen

Hi guys, I'm back again..hoho...It feels like its been awhile already since I last updated my blog. *Tangan gatal nk update tapi apekan daya, tgh finals niiiih!* Serious...dlm draft da ade bnyk gak topic nk tulis *draft la sgt, just topic or article yg rse2 cam nk kupas je*. tapi priority utk study FB tetap no 1 *ehem2*.

As the title shown, I will write about the reality of exam month. The D-day. The Big One. What I will show you will shock you. but I can guarentee you that this is the reality. dont say that "hey, youre the only one who have this kind of symptoms" NO! This is what everyone is experiencing so, headshot kat kepale sendri ok?hoho.This post will be quite long, but I got pics to compliment it with. so read on folks! =D

So I have just finished my 4th paper, now its two more to go. yay! Next exam will be on 17th April as shown below, ergo I got ample time to laze around tonight. Tomorrow stat study!huh!

Yeah, aku mmg sgt la pemalas dan tak creative. tgk board aku da tau kan?hoho saje amik gamba d whole board. tujuan nk tunjuk schedule exam je, tp nmpk tak medal powerman tuh?hoho!

One thing I love about exam season is that you got loads of time to yourself. No other programs to meddle with, no schedule to follow everyday. You only have to concentrate on your exam schedule. Fortunately, my exam schedule is not tight whereby we got gaps for each exams. Untuk org2 last minit study cam aku nih mmg blessing gle lah. Bley concentrate on one subjek after another. But the downside of exam is that, you will experience what we call 'serabutness'. The serabutness is a kind of like a habit you'll get this time around. your need for washing yourself will decline, shaving is unnecessary. sometimes u bathe only once a day before lunch.*some would just not bathe at all considering they don't have to go outside their bedroom*. But the most obvious will be your bedroom.

The pics I took at some random guy's room. Xbley blah selekeh gle mamat nih. Tapi aku dgr die nih cool gle.

Yeah...everything will get messy. you'll get so focused on your studies that you don't even care what your room looks like any more. Your bed will be a place to put all your self made notes, printout and sorts so that you can clear everything on your desk. You'll get sleep deprived anyway, so why bother to tidy it?

Ok what I wanna show next will totally illustrate what you're going through while you are studying. From the very beginning to the very end. and how it ends varies with many people. But I'll show you the worst that could happen.

So here you are..excited, pumped and ready to go into another world. meditate even. into a world of studying. You are focused and ready to absorb all the knowledge you want to prepare for exam. There you go, sit at your desk with your notes all over it.

Now this is how I look like when i got excited to study. learning is fun!

Then, as you go on you tend to forget about the whole world as you are totally consumed by the world of knowledge. Focus is the key they say. You try very hard to understand the logics and memories stuff.


You'll get into thinking games. sometimes you think so hard about what you're studying. But sometimes you just got lost in the way. Berangan lah kate org. Agak2 tanak bg kantoi roomate ko tgh berangan buat2 la mcm tgh pikir something cool n den buat suare mcm "aaaaah paham dah"

But after sometime...maybe about 1-2 hours of focus, it'll get pretty boring and loose your attention

Your eyes get a little droozy. bit by bit

Slowly your eyelids drag you bit by bit..heart pumping slow, your head whispers to you "sleep boy...sleep, we'll go to that nice meadow full of beautiful flowers and lie down there with a pretty angel"

Until you can't take it anymore and your eyes gave up.

There goes.....its a wonderful world in the dreamland

Ok now. What will you do at times like this? You have two options whether to let go and straight to lalaland or you can resist and fight the sleepiness. Of course you many of you will choose to fight on am I right? and what better way to stay up then to make a good ol' mug of hot and steamy nescafe'.haha let the caffeine run through your veins and you'll be up and ready again.

Its the usual neslo for me. 1 sachet of milo wif 1/2 sachet of nescafe wud do the trick

Well ok now you have a mug of nescafe, your up and awake. so now you would probably look like this

Its good. you are now pumped up again and ready to blaze ahead through the night. So now onto the next stage of studying. The next stage is well... is the state where most people go through, after enduring long hours of studying, plus the excruciatingly painful hours of memorizing and understanding...

Let the pictures do the talking

Trying very hard to understand at the same time the effects of caffeine starts to rub in

At some point, you feel too much of a headache and your brain is too saturated of studying that you cant take it anymore. otak dah tepu gile babi pnye ah. you'll feel nauseated and rase cam nk muntah pn ade.

This story is told by my friend azam. I never experience something like this before, but he told me that he was so sick of studying that he felt like puking

So there you go. I bet most of you look the same while studying right? haha..I know most of you guys are in their finals right now so good luck, and don't get stress out studying. Every people have their own techniques therefore do what you do best. Sleep is for losers!

p/s: this post was supposed to be posted exactly 24 hours before because of stupid writer's bloc I can only finish my writing today, so i actually have paper tomorrow. good luck to me!hoho

Friday, April 9, 2010





Exam = Study = Tensen

Tensen2 study mai layan bdk due ekor tak btol nih.

p/s: kalau rajin pegi la usha mamat anas tahir nih kat youtube. mmg klaka cam sial mamat nih. kah3!

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

A matter of principles

Something that my friend said just now struck me.

"Ko memamg dari dulu camni. Asik berubah2 je thinking ko nih. Tak ade prinsip yang tetap. A good leader must have strong principles. Contoh kalau aku jd follower ko, aku akan tetap ikut ko even kalau ko salah."
Perbualan ini berlaku selepas aku decide nk duduk K11 instead of KTGB. A matter of deciding which college to stay next semester.

This got me in deep thinking. Do I not have strong principles, stand strong on my belief?  I have always thought that I have the made certain principles in my life, and I never turn my back on them.

I guess after what my friend said, I realise that I tend to bend the rules, a bit TOO much. I always had a layback thinking. Flexible is what I call it. But this leads to low class mentality. Yes and I just realise that. I mean, Its good to be flexible. At least, every decision I made, will have last minute call. I dont have to make that decision on the spot. Because I tend to change my mind for the last minute as I always consider the boon and bane of everything.

But back to what he said,  yes I do consider that I'm not a man with principles myself. Macam lalang org kate. Kejap ko pikir camni, last2 ko pikir lain plak. Sigh. I've got to change. I have a whole world coming to me just yet. A long journey to go through. Decision making is the most important thing in my life after this as an engineer and a future Board of Directors of some company. Hancur company aku kalau aku tak berubah gini. I have to learn to stick with my guns and set rules in my life.

I am a future leader of this country. And I strive to do the best for myself, my family and to my country

"Oh Allah, make me a good leader, make me a leader who have strong belief and principles. Especially in terms of your religion. Guide me to become Soleh Muslim leader oh Allah."

p/s: The first step of change is that you recognize and accept your weakness. Then, its all action oriented. Have you had your muhasabah session with your self today? ;p

Monday, April 5, 2010

A little less friendly

as of 1600 hours, 05 April 2010 I a just another snobby teenager who doesn't like to be friend with others or am I just plain curious....


Dont get me wrong. I like expanding my networks. I love to make friends. But dontcha think that this is just a lil bit too exaggerating of your popularity? I mean, I dont think that I have the slightest idea who are 1/7 of these so called "friends"

Whats the point of adding friends if you dont even bother to know who they are and have no connection with each other? At least some people add friends because they got one or two mutual friends thats fine. They can relate with each other and maybe share stories about that mutual friend. Maybe studies in the same college that is also good. Its networking. But what are we gonna do with these people who randomly adds people and then have no idea what to do next? You dont know who they are, and then have no plans at all to get to know you then whats the point?

Technology does mess up the whole idea of being friends. lets go back to the good ol days! =)

Hurm... gotta go through "spring cleaning" of friend list. huhu

p/s: blame it on the testosterones. a horde of the "I dont know who" are females who just loved adding me as their FB friends. the cute ones I add la. huhu. True story.
p/s/s: Ini bukan cubaan utk mencapap. jus another story to share. True story.
p/s/s/s: Anis, sape lg HOT skang?hoho

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Dont judge a book by its cover

Selamat pagi, salam 1Malaysia

Pagi ini tidak ada apa yg hendak dikupas. cuma mahu copy paste sahaja artikel dari blog kawan rapat, Mohamad Syazwan, Wan Karai. Artikel nya begitu menarik perhatian saya sama skali kerana apa yang diperkatakan memang memang selari dengan apa yang saya selalu fikirkan.

Bagi saya, perkara yang jelas wajib atau haram, jangan lah dipertikai kan hukum nya, apatah lagi dengan mengeluar kan hujah2 yang tidak berasas hanya untuk mempertahankan diri sendiri untuk merasakan diri itu selamat "didunia". INGAT selamat didunia tidak bererti selamat diakhirat. Jangan dibazirkan waktu dan tenaga untuk melakukan perkara tidak berasas. Jangan jadi bodoh dan bongkak, maka perkara yang sebaik nya perlulah ada di hati setiap insan untuk berubah dan insaf dari melakukan dosa. Perkara yang dinasihati itu hendaklah di terima dengan tenang walau pahit untuk ditelan kerana EGO masing2.

Saya pelik apabila seseorang itu sungguh marah apabila dinasihati. Perkara yang dilakukan jelas salah (even if we think we're doing it right doent make it less evil). Dikeluarnya segala macam alasan dan tohmahan kepada pendakwah. Ingatlah setiap muslim telah dipertanggung jawab kan untuk berdakwah. Walaupun mungkin cara nya salah, cuba kita renungkan dan tanya diri kita balik " Have we done our responsibility as a muslim to PREACH?" setidak nya mereka yang pilih untuk berada dijalan Allah lebih mulia dari kita yang tidak melakukan apa2 ini.

"Jangan lihat orang yang berdakwah itu semata2, tapi lihat lah isi kandungan dakwah tersebut. kerana manusia acap kali melakukan kesilapan."

Ungkapan ini kerap saya dengari, saya yakin anda juga mungkin kerap mendengarnya. Kata-kata dari wanita yang tidak menutup aurat yang sering mendakwa bahawa hatinya baik dan suci walaupun ia berpakaian seksi serta mendedahkan aurat.
"Orang wanita bertudung pun banyak yang jahat hari ini, berzina, khalwat dan macam-macam lagi" Katanya memberi buah fikirannya.
"Malah, kami juga baik, kami tak kacau orang, tak mengumpat dan buat benda-benda tak elok" tambah wanita ini lagi.

Benarkah hujjah mereka?. Benarkah penampilan luaran tidak terpakai di dalam Islam ?. Ada juga yang sudah semakin ‘advance' hujahnya lantas berhujjah dengan sebuah maksud hadith Nabi yang sohih iaitu :
"Sesungguhnya Allah tidak melihat kepada tubuh, rupa luaran dan harta kamu, tetapi melihat kepada hati dan amalan kamu" (Riwayat Muslim)
Simpati bercampur kesal saya mendengar bagaimana terdapat orang yang sewenangnya berhujjah dengan hadith untuk menyokong nafsunya. Hanya digunakan Islam dalam hal yang selari dengan kehendaknya sahaja.

"Seorang pekerja yang dijumpai oleh majikannya sedang bermain ‘game' semasa waktu kerjanya sedangkan dokumen yang dipinta si boss masih tidak disiapkan, lalu si majikan berkata: "Macam mana kamu nak cemerlang dalam kerja kalau begini sikap kamu"
Lalu jawab si pekerja : " Saya luaran je nampak main ‘game' boss, tapi hati saya ikhlas dan saya kerja dengan cemerlang"

Adakah anda rasa si boss boleh menerima cakap pekerjanya itu ?. Adakah Allah SWT boleh mengganggap hati seseorang itu suci dan baik dengan melanggar perintahNya ?
Hakikatnya, sesuatu untuk baik dan suci mestilah ditentukan mengikut neraca Allah dan RasulNya, bukannya neraca pemikiran kita semata-mata. Jika merujuk kepada neraca Islam, Nabi SAW pernah bersabda ertinya :
"Ketahuilah, bahawa di dalam diri anak Adam itu ada seketul daging, yang bila ianya baik maka baik seseorang itu, dan apabila buruk, buruklah amalan seseorang itu, ketahuilah, ia adalah hati" (Riwayat Muslim)

Berdasarkan hadith ini, menurut neraca Islam kebaikan hati seseorang boleh dilihat di peringkat pertamanya dari tindak tanduknya. Ertinya, bila tindakannya sentiasa menyalahi kehendak dan hukum yang diletakkan Islam, ia adalah tanda kekotoran hatinya. Jika tindakan luarannya pula bertepatan dengan kehendak Islam, maka adalah harus ianya dianggap baik pada peringkat pertama iaitu neraca luaran orang ramai, adapun baik di peringkat kedua adalah samada hatinya bertujuan kerana Allah ata selainnya seperti sekadar menunjuk-nunjuk sahaja.
Justeru, 'we can judge a book by its cover in certain cases' iaitu apabila perkara asas Islam dilanggar, maka sudah tentu ‘that cover is reflecting what's inside the heart of a person'.

p/s: penulis cuba sedaya upaya untuk mengarang dalam bm. maaf jika tatabahasa cacat
p/s/s: rangkap terakhir penulis ditujukan kepada insan yang sentiasa tidak berpuas hati kepada insan2 pendakwah yang melakukan tugas mereka. Always look on the positive aspect in everything. "husnuzon" bak kate pepatah

Saturday, April 3, 2010


1) Alhamdulillah, praise be to god almighty, for he has given us sufficient wealth, health and the will to live on.

2) Alhamdulillah, setel dah internship hunting aku. For now just have to prepare mentally, physically and equip myself the urge to learn and gain experience. Agak chuak thinking of the days that lies ahead, cos cant expect at all what will happen, how will I act n such, but like ppl always said, just be yourself and you'll be just fine.*or am I?* sometimes ppl say dat being myself is kinda annoying. haha. Scomi here I come!

3) Alhamdulillah, setel dah 1st stage Final Year Project aku, that is finding a supervisor lecturer. Thanks Prof. Dr. Nawi Derahman for accepting me as one of the three students you choose to supervise. You have always been like a father figure for me since my first class with you during my 1st year. I look up to you sir, and always feel jealous of how you've lived your life. How I wish I can imitate you in any way, the way you talk, the way you made british jokes, the way you can intelligently discuss on anything.

For now, I just have to learn reservoir simulation and the Eclipse software. It is something totally alien to me, but I have to struggle extra hard to achieve taht success.*tu la sape suroh gatal sgt nk wat simulation. org len wat lab kan sng ngeng!* but it is my choice to do something unique rather than ordinary.

4) So now, there is only one thing left before i proceed to those things. Finals!

6/4 Petroleum Geology
7/4 Writing for Specific Purposes
9/4 Well Completion
14/4 Gas Engineering
17/4 Production Engineering
20/4 Evaluation and Management of Petroleum Projects

5 papers in 2 weeks and loads of chapters to cover. Good luck 3-SKPians. May the force be with you!

"Oh Allah, make me a better man. Make me a better fighter. For I let the outcome to your own judgement, least I struggle and make the best out of everything. Make me hunger for knowledge, and equip me with the appropriate skills to become a wise leader that bows for no other than you. Ameen"